Waiting, or Doing?

I've had so many spiritual boosts lately.  It was a wonderful morning at MOPS where 3 women shared their stories of how God is working in their lives.  My heart was touched and it left me thinking of MY life.  How is God using me?  I have long thought that I'm pretty insignificant and unimportant.  Not in a "poor me", low self-esteem way, but just in a "I guess I missed my calling" sort of way.

Today I realized today that I'm not worthless. 

I wanted to do so many great things with my life, I had high hopes of someday finding a cure for Alzheimer's, or being a lawyer that defends children in child custody cases.  I never matured and got serious about pursuing those dreams.  And now, those dreams have passed, and right now I honestly don't know *what* on Earth I want to be doing with my life, or where it is headed. 
I've been waiting for my chance to do something great mighty.  While I've been waiting for the next BIG thing I've passed up a whole lot of life just sitting idle & waiting, rather than seeking out where I should be.

I've spent years regretting being married, thinking there is someone better out there for me, and that my husband deserves someone better who is actually doing something with their life.  I've spent years thinking I am the least qualified woman to raise these children, even though I love mothering and the joy I get, I feel like these kids could care less as long as they're fed.  They show no appreciation for what I do.  I've spent years wishing I was a better friend, and years wishing that I was something important.

All of these years I've been waiting, I haven't been doing a thing about accepting where I am.  What a waste.  I'm so ashamed.

I checked Facebook when I got home this afternoon, and yet again, another spiritual boost. 

God calling me to quit WAITING and start DOING. 

 

What are you waiting for?  Or what are you doing?