I am so tired of this scenario:
The look on the faces of these innocent people just trying to make conversation is enough to make me want to burst into tears and yell "I'm sorry!".
But if I'm being honest, I'm really not sorry, not even a little bit.
I grew up believing in santa at our house, actually there is probably still a homemade santa suit in my dad's closet. My husband and I led our daughter to believe in santa for years and years, and even did for a of couple years with our son.
I just got tired of it all. Personally, I know that it is exciting to wait up, wishing and hoping for santa and listening carefully to hear his sleigh on the rooftop.
There are so many truly great experiences in life. I don't think I'm depriving my children by telling them that Christmas time is about the birth of Jesus Christ , our Lord and Savior and really so much more.
I guess I don't really know why I'm writing this other than to get my embarrassed feelings out there on the table and say:
I don't judge you.
I don't think any less of you.
I would like the same respect. Please quit dropping your jaws & treating me like I'm screwing up my kids. I'm happy and excited for you guys to all celebrate having Santa at your house.
I remember the thrill of putting out reindeer food at night and waking up early in the morning to make sure the camcorder was ready to catch the smiles of children excited to see what Santa had brought for us.
I just wish I could tell the store clerk of all the wonderful things my children do for other children, maybe even for their children. From donating their own boots, shoes, coats, hats, gloves countless toys, packing up shoe boxes for operation christmas child & giving with a gracious heart that is so rarely seen in school age children these days.
Instead, I stumble over my words I feel embarrassed and I leave everyone feeling very uncomfortable. For that awkward feeling, I am sorry. I'm not sorry for telling my children that Christmas is about Jesus Christ and making that the main focus. It works for us.
Store clerk: "What do you think Santa is going to bring you this year?" Or "Have you been a good kid this year? Is Santa going to visit your house ?"
My child: *scowling*
Me: *embarrassed, turning red, but smiling & stumbling on my words*
"Oh, we don't do Santa, but we are really excited for Christmas" or my worst one yet that just came out "He actually doesn't believe in Santa" (talking about my 4 year old).
But if I'm being honest, I'm really not sorry, not even a little bit.
I grew up believing in santa at our house, actually there is probably still a homemade santa suit in my dad's closet. My husband and I led our daughter to believe in santa for years and years, and even did for a of couple years with our son.
I just got tired of it all. Personally, I know that it is exciting to wait up, wishing and hoping for santa and listening carefully to hear his sleigh on the rooftop.
There are so many truly great experiences in life. I don't think I'm depriving my children by telling them that Christmas time is about the birth of Jesus Christ , our Lord and Savior and really so much more.
I guess I don't really know why I'm writing this other than to get my embarrassed feelings out there on the table and say:
I don't judge you.
I don't think any less of you.
I would like the same respect. Please quit dropping your jaws & treating me like I'm screwing up my kids. I'm happy and excited for you guys to all celebrate having Santa at your house.
I remember the thrill of putting out reindeer food at night and waking up early in the morning to make sure the camcorder was ready to catch the smiles of children excited to see what Santa had brought for us.
I just wish I could tell the store clerk of all the wonderful things my children do for other children, maybe even for their children. From donating their own boots, shoes, coats, hats, gloves countless toys, packing up shoe boxes for operation christmas child & giving with a gracious heart that is so rarely seen in school age children these days.
Instead, I stumble over my words I feel embarrassed and I leave everyone feeling very uncomfortable. For that awkward feeling, I am sorry. I'm not sorry for telling my children that Christmas is about Jesus Christ and making that the main focus. It works for us.
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Psalm 19:14New King James Version (NKJV)
Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart
Be acceptable in Your sight,
O Lord, my strength and my Redeemer
Thank you for the L♥VE!